This condition is -a lil bit- hurt to me .
I joined math olympiad held by ITS last sunday with my partner, Gita. The problem given were extremely hard, or maybe not that hard but because i was not studying to the max, it was felt so hard. well okay, it would be like a dream if i passed to the semifinal. And the fact : i dont .
It would not be -a lil bit- hurt if i concerned to this olympiad only. But the fact is i'd joined many olympiads and i never ever passed it ! good . Damn good . And the second fact is : my friends have passed it once (some twice) and i never . Okay, they passed in statistic olympiad when there're only 8 groups were picked to the next level and Lita and I were in 10 rank ! oh my gosh . Holy damn shit .
And when i opened the omits web, i couldn't imagine if i were passing it, but there's a lil hope in my mind. hoping some miracles. but there's no my name in that list . so yea, here i am . a never-win-the olympiad-girl (i dont want to use the word 'loser' cause i'm not).
Well in some cases i cheered my self by thinking hey, maybe today is not my time, and yea, this is exactly the best for me and maybe they who pass it are actually worth for it. but now, may be i'm in PMS periode so i'm sort of sensitive today so i feel so weary when i have to lose again, cheer my self again, feel that 'this is the best for me' again, 'they worth it' again, get the participant sertificate again.
Huah, feeling like a dumb as i writing it . cause it's like that i couldn't accept the fact sincerely. it's not like that bud, i've been in the condition like this before, when i hard to accept the fact. But sooner or later i usually forget this dumb think. i must move on, never think to give up.
I've ever read someone's biography, and damn! i never knew the man like him, who had many many failures in his life but he never gave up! he always tried to move on until he could be the most influence president of America, Abraham Lincoln.
Here is the list of his failures and successes in his lifetime, may it will inspire you :)
* 1816: His family was forced out of their home. He had to work to
support them.
* 1818: His mother died.
* 1831: Failed in business.
* 1832: Ran for state legislature - lost.
* 1832: Also lost his job - wanted to go to law school but couldn?t
get in.
* 1833: Borrowed some money from a friend to begin a business and by
the end of the year he was bankrupt. He spent the next 17 years of
his life paying off this debt.
* 1834: Ran for state legislature again - won.
* 1835: Was engaged to be married, sweetheart died and his heart was
broken.
* 1836: Had a total nervous breakdown and was in bed for six months.
* 1838: Sought to become speaker of the state legislature - defeated.
* 1840: Sought to become elector - defeated.
* 1843: Ran for Congress - lost.
* 1846: Ran for Congress again - this time he won - went to
Washington and did a good job.
* 1848: Ran for re-election to Congress - lost.
* 1849 Sought the job of land officer in his home state - rejected.
* 1854: Ran for Senate of the United States - lost.
* 1856: Sought the Vice-Presidential nomination at his party?s
national convention - got less than 100 votes.
* 1858: Ran for U.S. Senate again - again he lost.
* 1860: Elected president of the United States.
source : snopes.com
Briefly, i should not give up, never. and keep believe that what God has given to me is actually the best for me . And i'm sure, even i've already had many failures but it will become a day when i can make my parents so proud of me, be the very amazing person, useful for myself and others. amin :)
P.S : i have the favorite quote from Abraham Lincoln : it's not important how many times you fail but how many times you get up. Gak penting berapa kali kita gagal, yang penting berapa kali kita bangkit :)
I joined math olympiad held by ITS last sunday with my partner, Gita. The problem given were extremely hard, or maybe not that hard but because i was not studying to the max, it was felt so hard. well okay, it would be like a dream if i passed to the semifinal. And the fact : i dont .
It would not be -a lil bit- hurt if i concerned to this olympiad only. But the fact is i'd joined many olympiads and i never ever passed it ! good . Damn good . And the second fact is : my friends have passed it once (some twice) and i never . Okay, they passed in statistic olympiad when there're only 8 groups were picked to the next level and Lita and I were in 10 rank ! oh my gosh . Holy damn shit .
And when i opened the omits web, i couldn't imagine if i were passing it, but there's a lil hope in my mind. hoping some miracles. but there's no my name in that list . so yea, here i am . a never-win-the olympiad-girl (i dont want to use the word 'loser' cause i'm not).
Well in some cases i cheered my self by thinking hey, maybe today is not my time, and yea, this is exactly the best for me and maybe they who pass it are actually worth for it. but now, may be i'm in PMS periode so i'm sort of sensitive today so i feel so weary when i have to lose again, cheer my self again, feel that 'this is the best for me' again, 'they worth it' again, get the participant sertificate again.
Huah, feeling like a dumb as i writing it . cause it's like that i couldn't accept the fact sincerely. it's not like that bud, i've been in the condition like this before, when i hard to accept the fact. But sooner or later i usually forget this dumb think. i must move on, never think to give up.
I've ever read someone's biography, and damn! i never knew the man like him, who had many many failures in his life but he never gave up! he always tried to move on until he could be the most influence president of America, Abraham Lincoln.
Here is the list of his failures and successes in his lifetime, may it will inspire you :)
* 1816: His family was forced out of their home. He had to work to
support them.
* 1818: His mother died.
* 1831: Failed in business.
* 1832: Ran for state legislature - lost.
* 1832: Also lost his job - wanted to go to law school but couldn?t
get in.
* 1833: Borrowed some money from a friend to begin a business and by
the end of the year he was bankrupt. He spent the next 17 years of
his life paying off this debt.
* 1834: Ran for state legislature again - won.
* 1835: Was engaged to be married, sweetheart died and his heart was
broken.
* 1836: Had a total nervous breakdown and was in bed for six months.
* 1838: Sought to become speaker of the state legislature - defeated.
* 1840: Sought to become elector - defeated.
* 1843: Ran for Congress - lost.
* 1846: Ran for Congress again - this time he won - went to
Washington and did a good job.
* 1848: Ran for re-election to Congress - lost.
* 1849 Sought the job of land officer in his home state - rejected.
* 1854: Ran for Senate of the United States - lost.
* 1856: Sought the Vice-Presidential nomination at his party?s
national convention - got less than 100 votes.
* 1858: Ran for U.S. Senate again - again he lost.
* 1860: Elected president of the United States.
source : snopes.com
Briefly, i should not give up, never. and keep believe that what God has given to me is actually the best for me . And i'm sure, even i've already had many failures but it will become a day when i can make my parents so proud of me, be the very amazing person, useful for myself and others. amin :)
P.S : i have the favorite quote from Abraham Lincoln : it's not important how many times you fail but how many times you get up. Gak penting berapa kali kita gagal, yang penting berapa kali kita bangkit :)
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